I need to do the fucking ChaC.. work again because someone is angry at me for not doing the work lately -_- and here is the best part I LOATH doing that thing, why? who wouldn't anyways when most of the people who ask questions are either stupid, lame or perverts, ain't that fucking lame?!! of course it is! who wants to be asked a millionth times a day questions such as "What is masturbation?" -_- I mean wtf google it.
But guess what again?! I don't have a choice oh wait I do have a choice I can either do it or not do it but I chose to do it because I want to make someone happy, I can just forget about it if I wanted to but NO because I wan't to make someone feel that I do what he wants me to do -_- and here I just skipped doing it lately it makes him roar like its a big crime I did WTF -_- seriously its getting in my nerve AGH!
I know he thinks that I was being lazy but did he ever thought about what else in a day I do? I have a son that I need to take care of and give as much time as he needs, my life doesn't just move around the computer world, you know what I mean? It just ticks me off whenever he gets mad of things that he shouldn't get mad about, it's not like I'm not going to do it I was just giving myself a time to breath so I wouldn't totally just walk away on that job coz like I said its not a very awesome job I mean I know how much he works so hard, hes being a hardworking person and I really really salute that but I just wish for once I hope he stops looking for faults and get angry at me just because of things I didn't do that he wants me to do, he always finds fault in me but for once did he even told me how much he appreciates the little nice things I did? did i ever got a thank you for loving him that much even though he hurts my feelings when hes angry and say mean things at me and still loving him? :shrug:
I love him as much as I love my son, but it makes me sad whenever hes being mean at me AGHHHHHHH ... *breaths in ... breaths out*
Life goes on as they say heh ... and I learned that I can vent when I'm angry coz it helps grrrrrr...
I do miss him though so much :[ and I hate it!
But guess what again?! I don't have a choice oh wait I do have a choice I can either do it or not do it but I chose to do it because I want to make someone happy, I can just forget about it if I wanted to but NO because I wan't to make someone feel that I do what he wants me to do -_- and here I just skipped doing it lately it makes him roar like its a big crime I did WTF -_- seriously its getting in my nerve AGH!
I know he thinks that I was being lazy but did he ever thought about what else in a day I do? I have a son that I need to take care of and give as much time as he needs, my life doesn't just move around the computer world, you know what I mean? It just ticks me off whenever he gets mad of things that he shouldn't get mad about, it's not like I'm not going to do it I was just giving myself a time to breath so I wouldn't totally just walk away on that job coz like I said its not a very awesome job I mean I know how much he works so hard, hes being a hardworking person and I really really salute that but I just wish for once I hope he stops looking for faults and get angry at me just because of things I didn't do that he wants me to do, he always finds fault in me but for once did he even told me how much he appreciates the little nice things I did? did i ever got a thank you for loving him that much even though he hurts my feelings when hes angry and say mean things at me and still loving him? :shrug:
I love him as much as I love my son, but it makes me sad whenever hes being mean at me AGHHHHHHH ... *breaths in ... breaths out*
Life goes on as they say heh ... and I learned that I can vent when I'm angry coz it helps grrrrrr...
I do miss him though so much :[ and I hate it!
3 comments:
I'm sorry to hear all that, sis. I do not know what to say, but I am here for you. *Hugz*
It's ok to vent, you're human. Hang on in there, sistah. :)
I know it's hard to be online these days. We're getting old. Sometimes, I hate looking at the computer screen.
what is ChaC? o_O
but sorry to hear about that, sis. about what you're going through right now. hope everything will turn out fine. but you need to speak up, too. so he could understand.
aww. hugssss.
yeah i tried to speak up but i dont know if he can hear me or he even cares about what i want too =[
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