-Merry Christmas-

Today my husband bought me a membership on PSDtuts woot woot I'm so happy and excited to learn stuff :D hahaha feels like a little fat kid with a chocolate bar on his hand lol

And since its Christmas time once again well I played with the Last-Minute Holiday e-Card design tuts :) hehe, I think its an old tutorial but well who cares anyways, Not me :P heh, It didn't exactly came out the way it was on the tutorial but I like it so back off haters lol jk... anyways hope you like it ^_^ and Merry Christmas everyone! :)

-Before & After-

Blue glow dreamy portrait

was playing with photoshop again
with Sheryll's picture
showed her the outcome
and she likes it lol

-Satine-

A little supper? Maybe some champagne?
I'd rather, um, just get it over and done with.
Hmph. Oh. Very well. Then why don't you come down here and let's get it over and done with.
I prefer to do it standing.
Oh.
[starts to stand]
You don't have to stand, I mean. It's sometimes that... It's quite long and I'd like you to be comfortable. It's quite modern what I do and it may feel a little strange at first, but I think, if you're open, then you might enjoy it.

-1:05 a.m.-

YEees! I'm still awake har har :P
doing laundry "fun:fun"
don't ask why
coz it's the only free time I have for laundry hehe
Cali Shandy on my cup
makes me go :aaah! this is life!: ;]
I'm high tonight
although I'm not on drugs :P NEVER!
Cali Shandy effect?
probably!

Have to wake Chris up in about hmmm 2hrs from now
YES! He needs to be awake
coz he have a meeting :fun fun: Not really :P
Oh well back to washing heh fun stuff :sarcastic:

-Susannah-

Photoshop tutorial once again :) I was playing with the CS3 lately and I forgot how I love doing stuff like this :) Well anyways, in the tutorial they call it the fantasy girl well I call it Susannah you deserve to be happy ^_^ it's a quote from one of my favorite movie "The Legends of the Fall" the flower thingy was supposed to be some stars but I was thinking the flowers looks cute around her :]

So how's everyone? I can't wait till Christmas coz me and Chris plan on spending New Year at my family's home hehe well I convinced Chris though just 'cause I think Sabe is going to have fun since all his cousins are there and everyone else plus it will be his first time to celebrate New year like see some firecrackers and stuff :D hehe

Alrighty Gtg :D

-An Idea-

This is where I am [or rather We lol] are staying right now, the last picture is the building where our house is on the 3rd flr and by 3rd flr I meant 4th floor yes its kinda confusing the elevator says Underground, Ground Flr, 2nd Flr then 3rd Flr and so on up to 9th floor and on the other areas of the building they have up to 10th floor, ain't that weird? lol and the other houses are our other neighbors I like those townhouses they look cute but I don't like the price they're not really that cute infact they're not cute at all :D

But anyways just thought to post this pictures I took not so long ago like say last month ^_^ hehe, yes they have a pool but I don't like to go there to swim coz I'm shy? hahahahaha :P but yeah so I was bored so I posted this pics teehee ^_^ PLUS I have nothing other important stuff to post lately anyways hehe...

Oh how I love Cebu City :)

p.s.
All the pictures I took except the last one, I was on the rooftop where we hang our laundry clothes hehe pretty high eh ;)

-World Wide Words-

The word comes from Latin mansuetus:

-HeLp!-

Who here in the blogger world knows Drupal ??

Help me :(

I would really appreciate it a looooot ^__^

help me learn how this drupal thing works?

geeez im soooo lost aRgh!

-a good reminder-

So you failed.

Alright you really failed.

You failed. You failed. You failed.
You failed. You failed. You failed.
You failed. You failed. You failed.
You failed. You failed. You failed.

You think I care about that?

I do understand.

You wanna be really great?

Then have the courage to fail big and stick around.

Make them wonder why you're still smiling.

-Elizabethtown-

-Lunnai Update-

So what do you think??

shrug: o-O
I'm having a brain freeze sigh:

-Tired-

Nothing interesting to post... been busy lately but nothing exciting going on though :P just doing same old stuff, I'm still trying to figure out this whole programming and website designing, it still confuses me a looooooooooooooot blah...

But anyways ^_^

Chris bought a site domain for me or whatever you call it har har ^_^ and were still trying to fix it lol going to update when its all fixed but I need to finish working on my website design grrrr ...

I still am very confused of what I really want sigh: :(

here's some pics of Sabriel on Halloween :] Enjoy!

- exp.1-

Ok this is weird, this is not the colors of my design I made, the background wasn't violet it was pink, the petals are lemon green, the heart thing is magenta, the rest was black and some other colors, so what the heck happened??!! o.O I just upload it here and BAM! it changed the color grrr thats not the right color -_- that sucks though, I'm going to try and upload the pic again or something >.<

EDITED:

-Practice with the WACOM-

This was my first attempt drawing using the tablet lol just thought I would share this here :P

My 2nd attempt on using the wacom tablet, I dunno who it is, just saw her face on the site so I figured to give it a try using the wacom.

-Lunnai-

I'm working on a website right now this is how it looks like so far... i think i kinda suck :P It's not a client's site though [I WISH it is] just practicing haha... Any advice readers ?

oh and I hope to meet some more Graphic and Web designers here, it would be nice to exchange opinion and ideas :)

-Back :]

I've been away for too long
it seems
I've missed a lot of happening
I suppose
I've lost communication with some friends
I sure did :D

BUT...

Now I'm back
I hope to stay long
and write
about what?
I dunno :D
so as always
I'll go random :)
coz that's what I'm good at!


Hey I need a WELCOME BACK banner you guys lol

oh yea its good to be back :)

-How to stay young-

1. Throw out nonessential numbers. This includes age, weight and height.

Let the doctors worry about them. That is why you pay them.

2. Keep only cheerful friends.

The grouches pull you down. (keep this In mind if you are one of those grouches;)

3. Keep learning:

Learn more about the computer, crafts, gardening, whatever. Never let the brain get idle.

"An idle mind is the devil's workshop."And the devil's name is Alzheimer's!

4. Enjoy the simple things.

5. Laugh often, long and loud. Laugh until you gasp for breath.

And if you have a friend who makes you laugh, spend lots and Lots of time with HIM/HER.

6. The tears happen:

Endure, grieve, and move on. The only person who is with us our entire life, is ourself. LIVE while you are alive.

7. Surround yourself with what you love:

Whether it's family, pets, keepsakes, music, plants, hobbies, whatever.

Your home is your refuge.

8. Cherish your health:

If it is good, preserve it.

I f it is unstable, improve it.

If it is beyond what you can improve, get help.

9. Don't take guilt trips.

Take a trip to the mall, even to the next county, to a foreign country, but NOT to where the guilt is.

10. Tell the people you love that you love them, at every opportunity

****P.S.

here are the pictures of my laptop lol i know its a bit way too late already but hey as the saying goes "Better late than never" :P

David Cooke ayan na ha pics o lol



This is my awesome laptop hehe HP Pavilion dv6000 ^__^


my laptop and Chris laptop


this is chris laptop a apple macbook

- Chris is back -

July 7th at around 7:30 am
Plane arrive at the airport
Chris is back ...
Yeey! I'm so happy :)

oh and he gave me a surprise present :)
guess what?!
a new HP Laptop!!!
and a memory card for my camera ^___^
i wasn't expecting it though
so i was so shocked and surprise that he got me those stuff
he also brought some clothes and toys for Sabe :)

anyways I'm just so glad he's back here with me :)
coz it means less
worries and its more easy for me to hug hug him
when hes angry ^__^ har har lol

oh oh....
Nattysissy where are the pics?
send them in my email if you don't mind ^__^
im excited to see them :D

Ayesha hug hug ... mustamus? lol


tsug tsug choo choo train ...
im out for here now :)

<3 cesie lol

- PROTEST -

Yes I demand some pictures from my sissywoo wedding lol
pictures we want pictures hahah
im excited to see some pics
my butt is itchy of too much excitement lol jk
but yea we want pictures ^___^




4 more days to goooo... hep! hep! HooRaaYYyy! lol

- FUCK-

I wish I have a power or a magic
I wish I can stop the whole world
for a moment and make everyone pause
So no one can hurt my feelings or give me pain
so I can have a moment of peace for myself
to be happy, to be free, to feel that I exist.

- I can VENT -

I need to do the fucking ChaC.. work again because someone is angry at me for not doing the work lately -_- and here is the best part I LOATH doing that thing, why? who wouldn't anyways when most of the people who ask questions are either stupid, lame or perverts, ain't that fucking lame?!! of course it is! who wants to be asked a millionth times a day questions such as "What is masturbation?" -_- I mean wtf google it.

But guess what again?! I don't have a choice oh wait I do have a choice I can either do it or not do it but I chose to do it because I want to make someone happy, I can just forget about it if I wanted to but NO because I wan't to make someone feel that I do what he wants me to do -_- and here I just skipped doing it lately it makes him roar like its a big crime I did WTF -_- seriously its getting in my nerve AGH!

I know he thinks that I was being lazy but did he ever thought about what else in a day I do? I have a son that I need to take care of and give as much time as he needs, my life doesn't just move around the computer world, you know what I mean? It just ticks me off whenever he gets mad of things that he shouldn't get mad about, it's not like I'm not going to do it I was just giving myself a time to breath so I wouldn't totally just walk away on that job coz like I said its not a very awesome job I mean I know how much he works so hard, hes being a hardworking person and I really really salute that but I just wish for once I hope he stops looking for faults and get angry at me just because of things I didn't do that he wants me to do, he always finds fault in me but for once did he even told me how much he appreciates the little nice things I did? did i ever got a thank you for loving him that much even though he hurts my feelings when hes angry and say mean things at me and still loving him? :shrug:

I love him as much as I love my son, but it makes me sad whenever hes being mean at me AGHHHHHHH ... *breaths in ... breaths out*

Life goes on as they say heh ... and I learned that I can vent when I'm angry coz it helps grrrrrr...


I do miss him though so much :[ and I hate it!

- Balistic Mind -

So I still didn't change a lot :p I still keep thinking of a lot of stuff BUT this time its for a cause and not just some lame stupid crap that will ruin my head *Har Har* good eh? lol, I WANT TO BE COMPLETE as what the centrum commercial says :P haha.. oh yea im so awesome not really thought maybe a little bit >.< fine fine im not awesome Im super awesome lol oh crap just kidding :P

So like I said I want to do a lot of stuff, I thought about what I like and this time I'm going to make sure that I'm going to do something about it not because I'm a big loser :P But because I want to prove that "Hey! I'm capable of doing this " and because I like what I do so why not make it a part of my life right? just like coffee and cream lol..

"I want to learn more God help me! give me courage and knowledge so I may succeed in life"...


NOTE:
Natty is everything ready? :)

- Life is Free -

So I've been making a lot of thinking lately, I questioned myself "why?" over and over again and I prayed a thousand prayers probably like million gazillion and I just realized that I'm tired of being sad, I'm tired of this bullshit negative thoughts that runs in my head every now and then, I'm tired of people manipulating my life, I'm tired of keeping silent inside, I'm just tired of not being happy.

I realized that I deserve to be happy and not sad, I deserve to be respected as a human being, as a person in this fucking universe, I deserve to do and be what and who I am no matter the circumstances because by doing that it makes me the person who I really am inside and the kind of person that I wanted to be, I don't want much though I am a simple person who wants a simple peaceful life, is that so hard? answer is NO only if I'll keep on thinking only the positive things in life, the good things and not the bad.

So What I learned? I learned that I just need to try to be as happy as I can be and not to think too much negative evil stuff, I try to do what makes me happy and give love as much as I can, of course love is limited though :P it's exclusively for chosen people [ like my husband, son, parents, siblings, chosen friends and relatives] I try to keep myself busy on doing something not to tire myself but just to accomplish something good or nice for that day. I try to love myself again because I learned that if I can't love myself then it won't be easy to give love to others, and I learned that prayer will always help you no matter what.

I used to pray before I sleep way back like everynight its like a routine but I stopped praying sometime ago because I was foolish and became lazy to even say thank you God, but now I learned that God is powerful, He loves you no matter what but sometimes He needs to teach you some lesson in order for you to realized that "Hey! What am I doing? I need God in my life" yeap reality check :] so yeah I think God hit my head on the wall for me to realized that I was not doing the right thing, funny but true.

So whats going on with me now? Here I am learning to love myself again, learning to be happy again and I realized that life is wonderful you just gotta open your eyes and like really see it, I'm not saying that life will always be easy but hey that's what makes life wonderful because along the way trials that thrown in our life no matter how small or big it is it's what makes us the person that we want to be, it makes us realize that "Hey! I want to be this and not this!" you know what I mean? :P

So I guess little by little I'm getting cured, not exactly totally cured but I'm getting there and I'm glad!

- A little change is good -

SO my hair kinda have some highlights and its color pink not really pink but fuschia or something anyways heres a pic, tell me what you think ...

- Burn out -

It's been awhile since I post something here, I probably missed a lot of stuff already and I already break the 365 days posting HAH guess I can't make it due to some more important stuff other than the 365 days posting, although I think its a nice thing to do but maybe this is not yet the right time for that and that I have to focus on some more important serious matters thats includes taking care of my family.

Anyways, So I was wondering a lot lately asking myself if am I really happy? I mean I know I am but sometimes I feel like I'm not, I feel like I don't know where I'm going in life, I don't know what I really want although I do know I want my family don't get me wrong because I love my son so much and I love my husband but am I really happy?

I feel so burned out lately, keep on thinking negative things even though I try not too, I'm trying to be the person I used to be but I don't know where to start, I feel so sad lately too much to the point where I go so depressed and I cry too much lately too and I don't like it. I know life is what we make it but why can't I conquer this stupid negativity that runs in my head? I feel like they're controlling me instead of me controlling them.. I feel like I'm starting to lose my sanity :( agh what to do what to do??

Day 07/365 - Angelina Jolie -

An old pic of Chris I did way back, Angelina Jolie "Mr. and Mrs. Smith" ... So yeah I don't have any pics uploaded today because my computer was being a big retard -_- it won't read the drivers and stuff it's annoying... so i though't to just why not post pictures from way back that I still think is interesting [for me it is though lol] just so I won't miss a post on my 365 days lol.. tricky eh?

Yeah I don't think I can make it like the way others do, a pic took for today and post it, so i thought in situation like this where computer f:]cked up just still post pics that you cherish or that means something to me right? ;] so I still don't miss a post for my 365 thingy :D

So Anyways, this is an edited pic of Angelina J. [oh i love that woman] and of Chris just because I like this one =]

SO today, we all went at my Aunt's house blessing fiesta celebration :] plenty of good food heh but I need to lose weight so I didn't eat much :P and my aunt was making fun of me for becoming fat -_- duh not my fault I got pregnant and gave birth to abeautiful baby boy :P ha ha ha...

So yeah thats it for tonight... im off to la la laaaand.. night you all... Good morning to the other side of the world...

This one is for my husband :]
Becoz I made him upset coz I did or said something stupid earlier ...
I did said I'm sorry though [which i don't always say that]
so yeah I miss him so much and I hope he forgives me
if not today... I hope tomorrow?? :[


Some line part of the poem called "Man of my Heart"
by Joyce Hemsley

Spring comes with the sun
cold winds there are none
"man of my heart" - he's the one.

I gazed at him once
I gazed at him twice
this was the start of paradise.

He gazed back at me
he gazed lovingly
I heard the notes of a symphony.

Spring comes with the sun
cold winds there are none
"man of my heart" - you're the one.

Day 06/365 - Big Shirt -

Shirt by: Christopher
Camera: Sony
Mirror: Funny looking
Props: Electric Fan, Closet, Curtain, Windows & a dead monitor :]
Model: Me looking like goofy goof :P

Today I went town with Sheryll and we went window shopping and buy some stuff for Sabe including his diapper :P ...

So we where at this second hand clothes stores [Ukay2x] and guess what?!! we made some new friends ^__- NOT! infact we made some new enemies, not really though but we where just looking at the clothes and I like this one with like rainbow colors sleevless sorta and the clothing was nice except there was a little stain on the shirt, its not really very visible you'll only notice it if you look close and if your very observant like coughRAINcough lol but anyways she was selling it for 90 pesos but I was trying to bargain it to 50 [ YES! thats how I shop :P lol] but the lady really was like giving me 80 last price and I was like Nah! screw it I don't wanna buy it anymore... AND GUESS WHAT they said when we where already leaving?? they called us a FLIRT o.O and I was like wtf??!! so I told Sheryll to flip her hair and give them a we don't give a damn look and so we did lol it was fun heh ... I mean I didn't start it right? they did heh ...

And computer this morning was beign a tard tard it was pissing me off -_- eh it still is a tard up to now though the sound and the cam went kaboom it doesn't do a thing anymore which sucks ass gah -_- ..

So anyways, it's 10:39 p.m. I'm tired I'ma go hit the sack :)
Nyt you all or morning < style="font-size:85%;">sings*
don't ask coz I'm just making up those words for my own song :P

P.s.
I was doing house chores when I took this pic ..
I look sexshey rotfl ... Fine fine I'm not :P lol

Day 05/365 - 4 your eyes only -

So let me ask you...

Is this real or just some fake flowers ? ;]

yeah I took this pic coz I like the colors lol, I didn't took a lot of pics today so I guess this one will do heh it was raining so can't really go out and take some shots of what? of I dunno whatever I see outside lol I take pics randomly just because :P

Nothing much going today, I wanted to go at this Ukay-Ukay [ ha ha ayesh might know what that means :] but yeah its where you buy second hand clothes haha I know I'm cheap but heh [before you mean people whoever you are reading this right now & if your mean and your going to make fun of me] guess what?! its how you carry the clothes that makes you look beautiful :P bleh am I right or am I right?? lol so yeah I like good nice looking clothes :P so when I get the chance to buy them and if I like the style I will it :P ha ha ... specially lately since I need some clothes ^__^ or so I'm thinking but I tell ya if Chris knows I'm going to buy clothes for sure he's going to lecture me first :P lol oooh my dear husband of mine lucky him I love him lol ... Kk I'm out .. Peace ya ol!

P.s.
Hello to:
Autumn
Rain
Saja

& P.s.s.
geeez I so miss my koala :[
can't wait till july coz he be coming back home :]

Day 04/365 - Pizza Perfect -

Does it look gross?? Hell yeah BUUUUTTT it sure does taste oooH sooo GOOOD ^___^ yum yum haha Thick Crust Pizza Overload Meat and Cheese just the way I like it ...

Today me and sis and little Sabey Cakes went to town to buy some socks for Sabe. We went at the Big V store but didn't found any socks for Sabe's age dang it -_- buuuut we found some ball toys for Sabe ;) it was funny coz we where at the toys section and were looking at some toys first I showed him some pooh bears and tigger stuff toys but it seems like he doesn't care, so we went at the more animal random section and there we saw this medium size monkey hanging with his long arms and legs and Sabe kinda likes it but it was too expensive hehe, So we looked around more and found some bouncing soft balls for babies and the moment he saw them he was so excited that he wants to grab them all and I knew right away what kind of toy I'm going to get him ;] ...

Anyways I'm tired I'ma go get some Zzzzz's ... oh yeah I downloaded some new songs too haha the famous "LOW" by Flo Rida ft. T-Pain, "Piece of Me" & "Break the Ice" by Britney Spears [ ha ha yeah Britney so Bite ME :P ], "Take you there" by Sean Kingston.... woot woot gooo me lol

Missing Chris as always :[ hope he be home soon dang days seems to move slow agh ...

Day 03/365 - Cup E w/Noodles -

Yes that's what I had for breakfast this morning although I shared the noodles with Sabe :] ha ha ...

Today wasn't so bad, it didn't rain the whole day so I got the chance to clean the backyard [if I can call that a backyard though :P] although I like rain a lot but too much of it isn't nice, its a disaster if too much water heh ...

Nothing much exciting today though, just same old stuff .. oh and yeah ants bit me I mean there are thousands of them and I didn't see them coz I was looking somewhere else and there they are having feast on my feet too troublesome... so I have to spray them some Baygon [bug killer] and bam they're dead :D heh stupid ants shrugs: Kk that's it for today I'm tired good night you all or good morning ^__^

Day 02/365 - Sabriel -

This is one of the things that a mother will miss once the baby is no longer a baby but a fine young man/woman ...

I love how he sleeps on my chest whenever I put him to sleep :)

We both miss daddy :[

Every time I show him Chris pictures and I say "Who is that??" he gives me a big wide happy smile :) he knows that thats his daddy ...

Day 01/365 - oh Christopher -

So I just turned 28 a few days ago and this is my first bad picture being sweet 28 :P nothing special...

we had a nice dinner at home that's about it ..it was raining crazy that night though so not really a fun one but not too shabby :]

Sunday, we celebrated mother's day, I feel kinda weird when people are greeting me Happy Mommy Day lol but heh I'll get use to it I guess :P

I miss Chris ... so yeah that's it for today :P

p.s. Aye & Natty, haha here goes nothing lol the 365 days lol

- Snakes..& some Pups ? -

This morning the kids caught a small snake at the backyard and they put it in a small cage..

I took some pics of it coz I'm awesome like that lol jk

Oh and some pics of puppies from our dog Kuji :]

So who loves snakes and who loves some pups?? ^_-

- I've been thinking -

So, I've been thinking lately that I think I'm going to do a 365 days post here except its pictures ^__^ I mean I've been looking at this site flickr and they have the 365 days photos so I thought why not do it here, right? It be fun I think..

the problem is I really don't know how that 365 days works though, I think you snap a shot of yourself an interesting photo of what you did today, well since most of the people who does that took some photos of themselves and just describing about it and how the day went, ain't that a fun one?

except I dunno if I'm going to take photos of me everyday, So I decided to take random pics everyday and post one for the 365 days photo moments :] what you think about that? one photo everyday with a caption and telling how the day went :]

Hmmm... I think it be fun...

I think it's gonna be fun...

I think its a good idea..

I think its a brilliant idea? lol

How bout you?

edited: okay so a 365 day means = "A self portrait, once a day, for an entire year" .. so yeah instead of a self portrait I'll make it random interesting pic, once a day, for an entire year... I might post a pic of myself too, maybe :P

the question is = can I do it?? o.O

Let's find out??

I think you should join too ^__^ it be fun the more the merrier hehe..

- Summer's Insanity -

by Anna Stephens
photograph: cecile h.


She spent half her life in this paradise
Of palm trees, orchids and the smell of suntan oil
Balmy breezes, bikinis and carefree days at the beach.
So long ago when life was easy.
There's a certain feeling of familiarity in this place.
A far away, veiled hint of returning.
Not to home, but to what or where?
Perhaps to a time, a scent in the air, the sound of the ocean.
Something nostalgic, but sadly so,
Hovers over like morning fingers of fog
Crawling through the canyons.

The mere coolness of the grass on her bare feet
Brings rush upon rush of forgotten memories
Not even related to the grass.
Mourning doves call to each other.
Anguished lovers torn apart.
A fate too cruel to ever heal.
While catbirds mock their every note.
The air is filled with an eerie sadness.
How strange are the connections of the mind.
The long insanity of summer, this one singular summer,
Has only just begun.

- 11:37 p.m. -

I really hate to be ignored
makes me angry,
makes me sad...

But

I love attention
makes me happy,
makes me complete...

I hope he knows that,
my dear husband of mine... :(

- the love of my life -

I'm so glad I have them :]

- burned out -

i feel so depressed lately...

NOT GOOD i know ...

been missing chris a lot ...

sad sad...

help me make it through the day?

gah.. i hope he calls soon :[

|||crossfinger||||

coz my head is going loco thinking negativity.. gah


i have a weird dream today.. so scary i don't wanna think about it :[

- Laughter is the best medicine -

You can learn many things from children.

How much patience you have,
for instance.

We went at the beach yesterday and took the opportunity to take some pics with the kids [my nephews and niece] this one is a stolen shot i think it came out good, how bout you?

I'll post some more when I get the chance but for now I need to clean the house first :] [fun fun not really :p lolx ]

- Me against the world -

"there is so much out there that he'll yet to be discovered..."

just don't grow up too fast...

- Life as we know it -

Camera ....Lights..... Action!

I think life is like a movie, people are all lead actors and actress in their own lives in this world, it's a never ending movie coz as long as we're alive the film keeps on rolling. We are our own scriptwriters as well since life is what we make it, and sometimes surprising situation happens or appears in the middle of the scene, it might be comedy, horror, suspense or drama. Funny isn't it? but I guess it's true well more of I think it's true.

Some people have the same story plot going on in their life story but most are not, some are interesting and some are just plain boring. I guess for the boring one's they should spice it up a little, and some are too much interesting that it's kinda scary and needs to slow it down a little bit, but for some their life plot is just a perfect timing.. not too much and not too little interesting.

But what's really the difference between real life movie and movies shown in theater? Well real life movie I say, the script is always written on the spot as the film rolls on and the lights are all on and everything is saved on other people's memories including yours, and if something went wrong or messed up in the middle of the scene you can't turn back and edit it. Well I guess I don't need to explain more about the difference, It's just the reality and the fake.

An article i wrote back on myspace

[Thursday, November 24, 2005]

.. i thought i'ma share it here ...

comment anyone?? :P

- the Me Me Game -

So Autumn wants me to do this :P lol

So here it is...

My 6 Unknown and somewhat interesting [really? lol] facts about me:

1. I love to eat
[ is that something new that you don't know about yet? No? I thought so lolx ]

2. I drink alcohol
[yes unfortunately]

3. I love fashion and clothes
[yes once again unfortunately...but i don't have enough clothes waaaah lolx]

4. I'm addicted to Photography
[yes once again unfortunately...]

5. I'm moody :[
[ Chris says I'm bipolar waaaaaa :'[ scary eh? lolx]

6. I have this thing with boxing
[ I dunno why, but i like punching gah]

So yeah the End.. FIN... :P

- Rainy days on Mondays -

Yes, so this is how the weather looks like yesterday here as the title says except it wasn't Monday yesterday but Thursday instead [ heh :]

I really like it when it rains i dunno why though [shrug:] but of course I don't like it when it goes wild like typhoons and stuff [eeeek!] scary :P

Anyways this is just one of the other photographs I took and I'm planning to take some more and when i think its a good shot i'm going to post it here.. so do comment as you please :]

- Brand new day -

So here is my share of my so called suck poem i wrote sometime i dunno when but surely can remember why i wrote this ha ha :P anyways, i was browsing my friendster the other day and thought to post some of my old bloggies :P

So yeah ...

enjoy? maybe?

I'm starting a new life alone beginning tomorrow,

still with my head up and with a smile on my face,

I'll look up at the heaven and say a lil short prayer

"Thank you Lord for all these trials" ...

I'll walk alone on this journey called life

with a smile on my face,

for tomorrow is a brand new day..

a brand new beginning...

a brand new hope

and brand new adventure...

Someday when I'll look back of yesterday,

i wont look back with sadness

but instead be glad

that once in my life

along my journey called life

i passed that path and it lead me

to where I will be tomorrow.

But as for now I'll continue my journey

till i reach that end of the line of my life...

Life goes on as always...and I'm glad!

- thoughts to ponder -

Significant Messages

Some of the most significant messages people deliver to one another often come in just three words. When spoken or conveyed, those statements have the power to forge new friendships, deepen old ones and restore relationships that have cooled. The following three-word phrases can enrich every relationship.

I'LL BE THERE.
Being there for another person is the greatest gift we can give.When we are truly present for other people, important things happen to them and to us. We are renewed in love and friendship. We are restored emotionally and spiritually. Being there' is at the very core of civility.

I MISS YOU.
Perhaps more marriages could be salvaged and strengthened if couples simply and sincerely said to each other, "I miss you." This powerful affirmation tells partners they are wanted, needed, desired and loved.

I RESPECT YOU.
Respect is another way of showing love.
Respect conveys the feeling that another person is a true equal.
It is a powerful way to affirm the importance of a relationship.

MAYBE YOU'RE RIGHT.
This phrase is highly effective in diffusing an argument and restoring frayed emotions. The flip side of "maybe you're right" is the humility of admitting "maybe I'm wrong."

PLEASE FORGIVE ME.
Many broken relationships could be restored and healed if people would admit their mistakes and ask for forgiveness. All of us are vulnerable to faults, foibles and failures. A man should never be ashamed to own he has been in the wrong, which is but saying, in other words, that he is wiser today than he was yesterday.

I THANK YOU.
Gratitude is an exquisite form of courtesy.
People who enjoy the companionship of good, close friends are those who don't take daily courtesies for granted. They are quick to thank their friends for their many expressions of kindness. On the other hand, people whose circle of friends is
severely constricted often do not have the attitude of gratitude.

COUNT ON ME.
"A friend is one who walks in when others walk out," observes Walter Winchell. Loyalty is an essential ingredient for true friendship; it is the emotional glue that bonds people. Those who are rich in their relationships tend to be steady and true friends. When troubles come, a good friend is there, indicating "you can count on me."

LET ME HELP.
The best of friends see a need and try to fill it. When they spot a hurt they do what they can to heal it. Without being asked, they pitch in and help.

I UNDERSTAND YOU.
People become closer and enjoy each other more if they feel the other person accepts and understands them. Letting other people know in so many little ways that you understand him or her is one of the most powerful tools for healing your relationship.

GO FOR IT.
Some of your friends may be nonconformists, have unique projects and unusual hobbies. Support them in pursuing their interests. "Rather than urging your loved ones to conform, encourage their uniqueness. Everyone has dreams that no one else has, and through them can make yourself loved by encouraging those aspirations," says Dr. Alan Loy McGinnis, author of the book The Friendship Factor.

I suppose the 3 little words that I was expecting to see have to be reserved for those who are special; that is I LOVE YOU. Have a great day loving yourself and loving your love ones!

- 3 a.m. -

It's 3 a.m. and i still can't sleep

took some 3 shots of vodka [not sure what wine that was though] but anyways still can't sleep...

I'm tired but not sleepy :[

- TAG -

From Aye might as well do it now while I still have the time :D lol thanks aye and thanks also for the comments on the pics on flickr.... I miss you and Nattwoooo :]

1. At what age do you wish to marry?
- yeeey I'm married at last lol

2.Will you like someone that is younger than you?
- haha he is younger than me though :D

3.Where is the place that you want to go the most?
- Japan just to go visit and take lotsa lotsa pictures :]

4.If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
- that life will be much easier for everyone... which i think is impossible?

5.Do you believe you can survive without money?
- I will sound hypocrite if i pretend that I don't need money so yea i don't think you can survive without it one way or the other...

6.What are you afraid to lose the most?
- My family

7.If you win $1 million, what would you do?
- Of course build my own house and buy my own lot and built my own company building :D

8.If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
- Yes aint that the right thing? lol

9.List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
- She's nice, smart and sexshey hehe

10.What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
- that he'll remain loyal to me hehe :D

11.Which type of person do you hate the most?
- Evil ones? o.O

12.If you are given the chance to go back to the past and make a difference, will you?
- Let me sit and drink some coffee... I'll think about it :D

13.What is the thing that will make you think that he/she is bad?
- If one is judgmental.

14. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
- My family.

15.Are you a shopaholic or not?
- Nope.

16.If you have a chance, which part of your character you would like to change?
- Stubborn i guess

17.Who is the person that you can share all your problems with?
- uuummm i dunno

18.What's your weakest point?
- heh

19. What's the thing that you're most proud of?
- My son :D

20. Are you going to school/college/work tomorrow?
- No :[

- Photograps and Memories -

So last time I mentioned I open an account on flickr, well I don't have much pictures up yet so far I have a few, although I didn't use any awesome cams taking it heh the simple cam I'm using will do for now

BUT...

I don't mind you commenting them :)

http://www.flickr.com/people/tunasauce/

http://www.flickr.com/photos/tunasauce/

- jawkneeyeah -

You should definitely watch his videos on youtube, he is so funny specially the "Piece of Me" [piece of meat][well to me he is lol] but anyways yeah just try you might wanna have a little laugh :] just search his name jawkneeyeah and his videos will appear :D Enjoy...

On the other note: I'm doing okay just a little busy :] and I'm playing with the photoshop lately a lot heh, and I kept on trying to do more photography thinggy oh and I registered on flickr just because hahaha but I don't have that much pictures up yet when I do I'm going to post the link of my flickr here :D so do comment on them in the future hehe ...

It's Sunday weather is so freaking hot today I tell you [Gah] but it was rainning the past nights and Chris was having a hard time breathing lately also coz of the weather :[ too troublesome... Sabe just turned 7 mnths old last friday and is learning how to walk with his walker on ^_^ fun fun he's growing too fast it seems gah .... and I'm trying hard to go on a diet again blah too too troublesome [sigh] doing exercise is not fun .. not more fun when your doing it alone [sigh] ...

So anyways I'm going this is it for today :] Hola to everyone and hey you crazy kapatids you behave and be safe .. [Yeeey I rhymed .. kinda.. lol]


Peace Out!

- I'm a loser -

So I posted a blog here not too long ago in fact it have been like 15 minutes ago when I thought of deleting it heh, I guess I'm just not ready yet to shout out to the whole world about my fears and whats making me depressed sometimes and the why's in my head :P

But anyways, I don't really have anything to write about lately, my head is some what kinda in a jam and I can't connect words or phrase and all those jazz ...

BUT GUESS WHAT?!

I'm trying to learn how to design a website lately, like create it from scratch and all those photoshop galore hehe... so far I have this one site that Chris told me to do for a practice and it's kinda fun doing it except when the little white monkey[ yes i'm talking about Sabriel] goes ballastic and cry then I have to stop and give all my attention to him :shrug:

I'm also trying to learn some other new stuff on APS [adobe photoshop] for those who loves designing "winkwink" you might wanna try to visit this tutorial site http://www.psdtuts.com/ they have some kewl lessons that you might wanna learn :]

I wan't to do a lot of things if only I have all the time and freedom to do it :sigh:

Let's see things that I want to do and achieve [and receive maybe?]

1. I wan't to learn more about photoshop
why not? hell its fun and you can actually make money on it :P

2. I wan't to lose weight
So bad ... Oh geeez I've been longing for this since hmm 6 mnths ago?

3. I wan't to learn how to make sushi :]
I know you want too :P hehe

4. I wan't to go and have my hair spa
coz my hair looks like a mess now geeez its like a birds nest

5. I wan't to earn money
Who doesn't anyways? I just can't figure out how yet

6. I need a job
I think I do but what kind? I can't decide... what am I good in anyways?? :[ :sob:


That's it for now I guess...

- Whats on the menu? -

I don't know why but i just have the urge to post this thing :]

So I bet you are wondering what the heck is this thing in the pic? okay so this was chris dinner last night, i like to decorate the food sometimes specially when i'm in the mood :]

I call this "A La Green Crab" .. okay fine so i just made that name up hehe i really don't know what it calls but it sure does taste good [and so i hope though err hehe] but chris said it does so HAH :D

Anyways incase your so curious whats the ingredients are and incase you wanna try it out hehe here it is i reveal my secret the not so secret ingredients :D

. Crab
. Onions
. Salt
. Black pepper
. Scallions
. Rice [of course :]

then just cook them all together in a pan with a medium heat fire .. mmmmm yUm :D

- Sabriel's new groove -

I think Sabriel want's to be a dancer , he likes dancing it seems :D

Well him and chris were watching a movie called "The Emperor's new groove" and then there was a chasing scene and the music background made sabe go dancing his heart out just like a little kid :] So i went run and grab the cam and record it [ gooo me yeeey lol]

Oh and it looks like chris was the one making him dance right? well nope he was just holding him except the jumping part coz he gets too far from his daddy already that chris needs to pull him backwards haha

- Troublesome -

Yesterday was not really a pleasant day, Sabe was having a fever and he kept on just crying every now and then, he doesn't like to be held just by anyone and yes he only wants his mommy, I've been holding him since the morning he woke up and around 10 pm my hands are beginning to get a little tired already so i asked chris to hold him and put him to sleep, it was good... well i thought it was but after like 30 mins or less than that he woke up and started crying non stop it got me worried and everyone else in the house and then we found out that he was having a stomach pain and all he needs is to fart and burp and thankfully he did :]

As of today he still have cough and little slight fever and a runny nose but besides that he looks fine, he's playing with his abc's cards and was just walking around in his walker :]

I do hope he gets better soon though coz its troublesome emotionally and physically.



On the other note:

HAPPY Birthday Natty :]

Sorry its a bit late i forgot what the date is lately :D